I go by the name of Lady in the Red, i have decided to write my own blog about being a 21 year old woman and all the different kinds of men i have fallen in love with and all my future potentials. About a couple of weeks i was having a conversation about men to a girl i had just met and i realized right there and there that woman have common threads of thinking when it is about men and love. we all want that one man to love us not passionately but unconditionally and any woman that says that they don't are just trying to be all independent but they are in fact the ones that crave it the most.
As am writing this, i am writing this with a broken heart, i foolishly decided to start falling for a man that has a child and a psycho baby mamma.This was the man that i knew when i first saw him at my university lecture i had to have him, but he was already taken by a woman who was also in our lecture. The first time i saw them together, i remember me and my girlfriend standing there and discussing if they were just friends or lovers, there was no sign of them being lovers and yes they could have just been not the public affection type, but this woman looked like she was in her early 30s, whilst B looked at least 24. i was puzzled about this, until i saw one night them walking of holding hands and looool the way my face dropped was priceless. so i left my infatuation behind after that night as i am not a home wrecker and when i found out they had son, i removed all hope of her man becoming my man. it was not until we started the second year of university that me and my girlfriends found out that him and the psycho baby mamma had broken up over the summer. bit by bit over the months, i laughed at his jokes, gave him my seductive eyes and made sure to flirt and flirt. it worked, of course and we went on our first date early April of this year, we clicked so well and i knew he was a keeper when he put me on my bus or when he dropped me of home and stood there until he knew i was okay. it might be a small thing but it is those small things that shows ones personality. we quickly evolved from being friends to lovers, when we were not with each other we would be on the phone to each other and when we were not doing either,we would be thinking about each other. A good 98% of my girlfriends did not want him for me, they told me his got baggage, his got the psycho baby mamma, your young and beautiful you don't need this. it made sense what they were saying and i could see their heart was in a good place, but this man was everything i wanted in a man. The honeymoon period for us lasted for just 13 days. then the real shit begun, from the day i left a love mark on his neck and the baby mamma saw it and that is when the dramas begun. i put up with it, from being called a slut to trashing me on FB to constantly phoning him up when i was with him and using his son against him. countless nights were spent with him telling me he did not want her, did not want to lose me, saying i was the one and making plans for the future. this was the guy that got on his knees with tears in his eyes because he did not want to lose me. Girls do not ever fall for men when they pull this bullshit, they will say and do things because they are selfish, they are thinking about there current emotion right in that moment. here is an example, have you ever thought why its okay for men to talk about the future, about marriage about the house and the Babies, BUT when women talk about it, a good 89% men will automatically think you are thinking to far into the future and you just want to trap them. when men talk about the future to their current women they take it as a compliment but when woman talk about the future to their current man, man see it as a warning that this woman is being to clingy and desperate. anyway i have gone of topic. He broke up with me a day after he had introduced me to his son (i know right), he said he still had feelings for the baby mamma. i spent the whole next day repeating that line in my head as it was the last thing i had expected. this was the man that had introduced me to his dad, to his friends, to his son and all for what just because he saw the psycho baby mamma looking vulnerable after a mediation set up by his mum. he said he owed it to his son for him to have a family, the family that he himself did not have and was replaced by being exposed to drugs,sex and pain. it got me thinking that if i had not left that love mark on his neck that day, she would have not gone crazy until the point she attacked him and they ended up spending the weekend at his mums place trying to resolve their issues for their son. i guess everything is written but it hurts so much when the man you start to fall in love with, tells you he has feelings for someone else. As i am writing this alone with my thoughts and tears. he is with her in her bed and in her arms. men talk about how woman can be stupid when their are in love but when men fall in love they are they are blind. The psycho baby mamma when she was with him, used to throw herself at every man she saw at the clubs and the party's they went to, it was him that had to drag his woman of men and take her home. really!! a man is taking a woman back to his home and his bed after those tactics. the men i know a good 80% would end the relationship right there and there, the remaining 20% would properly just keep her around as a guaranteed fuck.
i know i can do better then a man like him, he is a tool that is being used, and i do not need that, i need a real man. Girls just do not go for a man that has a child, it may not bring problems at the beginning but eventually it will, as that child is going to be his main priority even if it means losing you. Another pointer also is say for instance if your going to ignore what i have just said because of the way you feel about him, your chances of the relationship working is higher if he has divorced the baby mamma, compared to if they were just an item who had broken up.This is because when two people go through a divorce it is finalized and they grief and come to terms with it. but when two people separate, i personally think there is a slighter higher chance of them getting back together as hope is still lingering in the air.
love can be the biggest blessing but it can also be the biggest curse. but i believe that life is made to take risks and yes sometimes they do not pay for but when they do the high for it is delirious.
every week i will write about Men and love and it will show you that it is not only that thinks like that about men and love. so if you want to read about love and men or just want to have a quick nosy read about someone current love life, then this is the blog for you.
thank you for reading this, it has really helped me and sorry for at times going on a bit to much.
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